compared to many people like, the number of my updates are really pathetic.
waha! but then again i dont really care.there's not really alot for me to write these days. why?
because im slowly decaying at home with NO life.

anyways,the sudden revelation struck me: my life is blessed.
compared to many others,my life is good.
i have my family.they love me and vice versa.
i have friends.i treasure them and vice versa (or i think so/haha).
and no matter how much i do complain about life,i think so far it hasnt been bad.

of course we have to suffer in order to enjoy it.its like the chicken and egg story.
so many cliches exist in this world,but they remain only because they are the ones that hold the most truth.

content.thats the word im looking for.

i dont need many friends.i may not be social but i have enough friends to really call them friends.friends that last and friends that stay.

talked to alvin yesterday.it made me feel satisfied,he gave me a lot of advice but most importantly it was fun to just take time to talk.

talked to chengwei today.it made me feel amused.he is one of my best/oldest friends.our conversation may be made up of mostly rubbish but its just so wonderful to be able to reconnect.

talking to weiqi everyday.i'd say i only realised recently that she may be feeling what i felt before.there's always problems in any relationship you have another person.be it family/friend.they can bring you down so low you think you'll never stand again.then they lift you up so high everything becomes worth it.

talk to silin almost everyday.she's the most stable/sensible among us (weiqi/silin/me) in my opinion.or the better word would be sanest.because weiqi and i can become complete lunatics sometimes.

talk to mel and gab because they are such kuku-fied people its unbelievable.going crazy over crazy stuff.

talk to aaron although he's a bitch.he was the one that kinda understood me in school who remotely understood the sorrows i was spewing.

thats the contradiction in life i guess.

i feel blessed.i have friends and family.they may suck but they are the best. :D

my greatest wish is that i never forget that.